..was down..n down n down..these few days
but it is true when people say that music can heal your soul and make u smile
A great song always saves a bad day.
and..i could listen to this one, over and over again.
Headphones on. Loud.

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O.K...I woke up in heaven today

She kissed me I floated away (away)

Never felt anything so great

Alright, now I brace myself for the fights

I’m light as a feather tonight

**Cause I can’t feel the ground

Someone let me down

I never felt so high as I do now

Its too good to be true

I don’t deserve you

I never felt a love strong enough to

Stop this world from spinning

Stop this world from spinning

And I see heaven when she looks at me

In her smile is the most amazing dream

And in her eyes I fall asleep

And I hope

Hope that she can see through the smoke

Of my imperfections into my soul

And my heart where she has control (she has control)

Happiness like this can never last (can never last)

Turns into the memories of the past (turns into the memories of the past)

??? (going just as fast)

for the Ne Yo fans out there..this is for you.

dont be bothered by the 'SHE' in the lyric..ladies.hehe..just turn it into a 'HE'

(^_^)

nc says: kadang2..lagu bukan sekadar lagu. boleh mencermin kn diri kita dan penyuntik semangat2 yg sewaktu dengan nya.. betulkn? :)

"..tiada sda dia. ."

My father recalled the telephone conversation he had with our foster relative, yesterday.

I choked back on tears as i heard how little Fernandes had gone just like that.

His father was crying as he broke the news to my father.

A healthy 10 year old boy, suddenly stricken with mysterious illness.

His feet was swollen, but the doctors couldnt find anything wrong with him.

His chest was in pain. Still, the doctors couldnt help.

That was a week ago.

He is free now.

Yet,

I could hardly accept the fact that this 10 year old cute face, who would ransack our dvd collection and play different movies every 15 minutes,,,is not here anymore.

He was the youngest.

Bless his soul dear Lord.

nc says: that is the lost of just ONE family. the whole world seems to be at loss now against mother nature. God have mercy..

Happy 2 know..that,

...u reminded me hundreds of time, growing old is part of human life.. (urang lagi kah tu kalu nda pndai tuaa?)

...we're both going to have lots of sun spots in the future, and u dont mind.

...u accept all my silly behaviours though it makes ur head spin sometimes.

...though ur never good with presents, u make it up with intangible moments.

...u realized i prefer tangible gifts on my birthdays; be it a pen or pencil..hehe

...though we'll be in a lot of stress the coming months, we'll see it through.

...u know i love red roses.

...u know that i know that we know what we should know..haha

...u always keep my feet on the ground and not have perfect expectations.

...u think we'll make great mum n dad..wow :)

...u would still jog with me though u've just finished a tiring day chores. (sebab lepas tu sa bja makan..hahah)

...though ur lense-shy (haha), u still create those moments for our photoshoot.

...u are my personal counselor, guru, and master in life.

...u wud drive anywhere with me, for me (sampai sasat di bandar2 sndakan ni huhu)

...u dont mind me blogging about the world and everything else.

...ur happy when im happy.

...u know what makes me happy.

..its OK if we're unable to celebrate birthdays on the day itself.

...we're both looking forward to many more coming trips together.yeshhh!!hehe

...u just called.

...it's OK not to be perfect.

Today..nc wants to sing: kalau rasa gumbira tupuk tangannn..(^_^), n cubit urang sebelah.haha

..n says: thank u J. ramai org slu kawin2 time bday kita kn? haha..sb tu slu belated celebration.kikikik

There's a sudden burst of thankfulness in my heart right now.

can't explain.

Pictures of my beloved J, my family, my friends, my miawwws..(hehe) is flipping thru' my mind

and there's that soft whisper of reminding me to be thankful with what we've got.

hmm..

I am.

I am thankful for i have my family,, small, ridiculous but loving and warm.

I love u ma, pa, sis.

I am thankful for the love of my life, who'd climb any mountains just to call me..hehe

I luv u hun, see ya in a few days (*wink2)

I am thankful for i am still breathing, living, feeling, seeing life.

I want to be thankful for the beautiful cats that create colours in everybody at home's life.

(u shud hear my dad talk to the cats at home,,hehe)

I want to be thankful for..everything.

Amen.

(click this beautiful poem for better view)

Thank you Lord, for reminding me this today.

nc says: give thanks, it doesn't hurt.

..no,, they're not our cats.

These three adorable cats are abandoned, unpurposely though by their master.
There were six of them. Now left only four.

These cats are actually owned by the only neighbour of ours in our kampung area. A single guy living with six cats! can u imagine..how he could really take care of all of them. but ..things are different now,, since he has moved to another place,,thus leaving behind these lovely creatures.

It has been about a month now these cats have been roaming nearby their master's (make that X-master) house. No food, no water,, only the verandah of the house as their shelter and the vast forest as their playground.

I wish i could take them back home - all of them. It's just impossible now. :(

We (my family and i, of course) go back to our little kampung home during the weekends only.

It feels good yet saddening to see these cats live on their own there. No matter how much food and water we left behind for these cats..its imaginable that they will have to face hunger for the next few days.

But, im sure they are a survivor.

Pretty good hunters..i can assure you.

I'M TRYING TO FIND A HOME FOR THESE CATS. (^_^)

Giving them a home only during weekends is not good enough.
I'm not sure whether blogging about this will work out something or nothing. But..i'm keeping my fingers crossed.

I call it as "Project Cats".

It's not going to change the world. but hopefully it will bring light to their part of the world.

The happy cats..freely roam our little house whenever we are around.
They don't really have any specific names..but looking at their fur..might give you some ideas.

Cat 1: The oldest and loudest. He has this cute tiger-like color on its mouth which makes him look a bit funny, amusing yet tough! He's a gentleCat though :)

Cat 2: The only female around a.k.a big sister of the two. Very motherly (since she likes to lick the fur of the other two) and have a mascara-eye thingy, which makes her look stunning hehe

Cat 3: My favourite. He's tiny, doesn't meow a lot..but manja gilaaaaa!! if he catches you around, he'll walk sexily (moving the tail upwards) and just rubs his head against your arms. auwww.. my dad cannot stand him sometimes! haha

Cats just love resting on your feet and rubbing their faces against it.

How tiny is the hand of the black cat. But mind you,, what sharp claws..

Okay, some CATactions now.
I just love watching them sleep,, with so many actions.

Isn't he cute. Why would anyone leave behind such a cat? :(

The manja one. Silent,, yet killing you with love.

These 3 (actually there are four, but the other one refuse to come to our house - pemalu)..are very close to one another. They would sleep together and no problem with eating together from one big plate. Adorable.

Nc says: People say that cats have nine lives. But these cats have more. Pure survivors.

How can you refuse them? :(

I would recall the things that I’ve gone through these few days as blessing in disguise(s).


When come to think of it, there should be no days in our lives that we shall call as an ORDINARY day. Everyday and everything is unique in its own ways.

A long week of nothingness (sebab kena bagi holiday 1 minggu kn).. has suddenly become a week full of opportunities and creative spaces. Hahaha..what the heaven am I blogging about here? (^_^)

‘nothing’..just a sudden inspiration out of the blue bah...,

I still couldn’t believe I spent almost the whole week watching a Korean drama series called MY GIRL. (thnk u ya,, my jantoong ati for it kekekek)

But I still can’t help it, that I need to mention to the whole world that it is such an inspirational n motivational story for me. Yep, so what did I learn?

1. It’s time to face the world head on with a smile on your face. – ‘Baasya!!’

2. No matter how complicated a situation may be, don’t give up.

3. Cheer up. Even if tomorrow’s the end of the world.

4. A lie might save a life.

5. Forgiveness is priceless. (an art I still yet to master)

And that’s only the FISRT blessing!

An old lady knocked my window one sunny afternoon and asked for a kind ‘donation’, in return of a religious bookmark for me. I was with a heavy sigh (sb mcm rasa inda mo bagi haha) but with a big smile (sb nda mo kenapatan kn) on my face. Siok2 tingu MY GIRL kana kacau ni.. *grin*

I gave an rm1 note to the old lady anyway. She was about to give me the bookmark when I kindly (aiseh..) decline it,,saying I’m not of that particular religion. Her face was a bit shocked yet smiled and thanked me… blessed me..sb sudi jugak bagi kn, walaupn bukan seagama. (^_^) hey kemmonnnn..this is 1Malaysia..haha..

But seriously, I was glad I did that. Whether she’s happy because a bookmark is saved or I was an easy victim.. or any other things..i AM stil glad I did it. Nyeheheh.. there you go:

You’ll be blessed (as Yoo Rin would have said it).

That’s two blessings.

Lazy lazy lazy.

But I forced myself to walk and ride the bus to the office today for a talk on h1n1. (Owh,,don’t ever say you understand what the bus commuters are going through if you have NEVER ride on a bus before – especially with the new system now.)

Hmmm..though the travelling part made me restless (apa nda, what should be a 20 minutes bus ride, ended up being 45 minutes , and that exclude the walking bit one has to do from the bus terminal to where-ever-your-destination-is).
Nevertheless..another blessing. Isn’t walking good for your health?

(^_^) and..only NOW i really understand the real nature of the disease.

YO! It’s a pandemiC. Correct information from the right resource will help. And so, according to a doctor from the Health Ministry, H1N1 is not selsema babi..for heaven sake.

Avian flu + Swine flu + Kita punya flu = A(H1N1)
..leave the pigs alone now.

Don’t worry (yet) if you’re coughing or sneezing like h*ll.
But if your fever temperature exceeds 38 degree celcius – WORRY!
Instead of going to some private clinic, go and seek help from the hospital.
They know what to do.

Trust me.
I went to two private clinics when I had all the so –called symptoms. And they told me,” don’t worry you’re fine” …I still didn’t feel FINE and in the dark of the real nature of the pandemic. (‘mgkin yg batuk2 n be ingus smpai mo mateee sda mgkin baru la simptom2 dia bah kali’ was the only thing I can think of).

*wink2* ..a final visit to the government hospital (which only cost me RM1), finally put my heart at ease. I brave my way to the H1N1 counter and asked the bonus question:

Macamana bah tau kena H1N1 atau inda? ..huhuhu

“meh, sini..” the nurse checked my temperature.,and said
“Ok pn ko ni, baru 37 darjah celcius, normal tu”..but still convinced me to go meet the doctor to get some medicine for my flu and cough.

O well..that’s a relief. Hehe..but still I didn’t feel FINE,
since I felt quite a warm temperature in my body.

So, while waiting for my number to be called in the medicine counter(lepas jumpa duktur),
I kindly meet the nurse just now to check my temperature (again!).
..hehehe..nasib kena layan.

“ko nda demam pun niiii..sama juga suhu mcm tadi”
(with an irritated expression sda dia) hahahaha..
*smile smile* (takut kena marah nurse).

..and thank God. I’m FINE now. No flu, no fever, just dry irritating cough.

Ain’t that whole messy h1n1 thingy a blessing? (^_^)

Well people, at least now we know the drill: If your fever temperature is more than 38, go, get help.

…How many blessings sda a..altogether..kikikik..

Don’t count. Just receive. You’ll be blessed.

nc says: life is a bowl of soup. If it ain't ur taste..put in a lil flavor.

I have never given it much thought. Mothers day?

But something strikes me this time around. The feeling of wanting to shower my parents with gifts and stuff is burning as I watch their grey hair grows with time. Everybody gets old,,for sure. But when one is a mother or a father,,,one grows old meaningfully..and gracefully, no matter how rugged or jagged their faces may be.

A few more days to mothers day. I bet everybody’s thinking of the best gift to give to the most wonderful woman in everybody’s life. But somebody said “No gift to your mother can ever equal the gift she gave you – life.” True. But dont let that stop u..just do everything or anything u can to make that happiness thrive and appreciation be felt..kn? (^_^) I guess the favour can only be returned when you are a mother yourself and shower your children with love, care, attention that equals to your mother.

I wish I could grow old myself with my parents beside me. .what can I say..im a mama’s girl.

I really dont understand those people who rather put away their parents at old folks home.

Ridiculous!

... ...... .

..i wish I could write more. But that sentimental feeling is all over me right now. I better stop.

Anyway,, no words could portray the love of a mother.

so..

Lets have a toast to all the mothers out there, wherever u are.

Nc's toast:

"To all mothers out there,may you will be blessed with love and care where ever you are, what ever you do. And may be you will be blessed with good health and well being and have a beautiful soul that guides hearts and acts of people around you. And to my dearest ma, we love you so much though we may have never said it – that goes to u 2 pa.”

she gave me life. (with our used - to - be small pet piiiittt)

proud moments. my parents with sister during convocation day at UM.
so happy,, sb dpt makan angin juga at the same time kn. wish we could do more of that.
(wanna gues which one is my sister? haha)

and as a treat to all mothers out there..here's a collection of Mothers of All Colours that i got from a fowarded email. the beautiful images are copyright of ImageBank i guess. hope they dont mind the pictures to be shared by all eyes..
here goes.